Expressing myself is not something that I find to be easy. I envy those who have no problem expressing themselves and know just the right way to do it. Some people express through music or through art, others through photos or through writing. Whatever it may be, they know what they’re doing, and they know how to do it well, and most importantly, they don’t worry about the judgment of others. I am not one of those people. I’ve been struggling to find myself lately. I’m not sure who I am or how to show the world who I am. That’s not something I’m proud of, or really care to admit to. But I’m sick of being “lost.”

I’m hoping that creating this tumblr account can help me out in finding myself and expressing who I really am. I looked at a few of my friend’s pages and it amazed me how much of that person I saw in their page. I’m hoping to do the same with mine. Who knows, maybe creating this account will do nothing for me- I guess there’s only one way to find out…

28th April 2010

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I’ve been listening to the music from the musical “Edges” all morning, I absolutely love it. The piano is great, the singing is great and the lyrics are great. I feel like each song relates to my life in some way or another.

This one is one of my favorites, it’s called “Dispensable.”

27th April 2010

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I tried.

What started out as determination to go to the library and work on my 7-10 page paper that’s due for my music class on Monday, soon turned into me going back to my room to listen to and download music.

My effort counts for something though, right?

27th April 2010

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Victoria: I want out. →

avolp:

There’s a saying that goes something along the lines of “Love is when you can’t fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.” Well what about the opposite? What about when all you want to do is sleep because dreams are better than your reality?

I’m sick of waking up wishing I was…

I’m going to run away. Come with?

yes, yes please

Source: victoriaar

27th April 2010

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I want out.

There’s a saying that goes something along the lines of “Love is when you can’t fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.” Well what about the opposite? What about when all you want to do is sleep because dreams are better than your reality?

I’m sick of waking up wishing I was someone and somewhere else. I open my eyes and “It’s Just Another Day” plays in my head. I need change.

There’s a point in your life when you just need to get away and start a new life…I have reached that point.

22nd April 2010

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Crotch Lake, Canada
I love being on or by water. I think it’s so peaceful and it’s a nice place to just sit and think. I wish I was at Crotch Lake right now, I could use some time with my thoughts. I feel so distant from them lately…

Crotch Lake, Canada

I love being on or by water. I think it’s so peaceful and it’s a nice place to just sit and think. I wish I was at Crotch Lake right now, I could use some time with my thoughts. I feel so distant from them lately…

21st April 2010

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Sometimes I really don’t like this school.

19th April 2010

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Song of the Week- “Alcohol” Brad Paisley

16th April 2010

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Don’t you just love those mornings when you accidentally oversleep and then you rush to get ready and you can just tell it’s going to be a bad day?

My “Life’s Little Instructions Calendar’s” message today said “Improve something today, even if it’s only your attitude.”

I’m gonna wanna work on that…

15th April 2010

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Note To Self:

Stop worrying about things that really don’t matter as much as you think they do. You woke up at 5 this morning unable to fall back asleep because you were freaking out. And you wonder why your muscles have been so tense lately and why you’ve been getting severe tension headaches…seriously, chill out, dude.

14th April 2010

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I really hate waiting in lines. Oh well, atleast it’s nice out.