Victoria

I’ve been listening to the music from the musical...

Wed, 28 Apr 2010 12:42:08 -0400

I’ve been listening to the music from the musical “Edges” all morning, I absolutely love it. The piano is great, the singing is great and the lyrics are great. I feel like each song relates to my life in some way or another.

This one is one of my favorites, it’s called “Dispensable.”

I tried.

Tue, 27 Apr 2010 16:04:31 -0400

What started out as determination to go to the library and work on my 7-10 page paper that’s due for my music class on Monday, soon turned into me going back to my room to listen to and download music.

My effort counts for something though, right?

Victoria: I want out.

Tue, 27 Apr 2010 10:20:52 -0400

Victoria: I want out.:

avolp:

There’s a saying that goes something along the lines of “Love is when you can’t fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.” Well what about the opposite? What about when all you want to do is sleep because dreams are better than your reality?

I’m sick of waking up wishing I was…

I’m going to run away. Come with?

yes, yes please

I want out.

Tue, 27 Apr 2010 08:01:48 -0400

There’s a saying that goes something along the lines of “Love is when you can’t fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.” Well what about the opposite? What about when all you want to do is sleep because dreams are better than your reality?

I’m sick of waking up wishing I was someone and somewhere else. I open my eyes and “It’s Just Another Day” plays in my head. I need change.

There’s a point in your life when you just need to get away and start a new life…I have reached that point.

Crotch Lake, Canada I love being on or by water. I think...

Thu, 22 Apr 2010 13:27:36 -0400

Crotch Lake, Canada

I love being on or by water. I think it’s so peaceful and it’s a nice place to just sit and think. I wish I was at Crotch Lake right now, I could use some time with my thoughts. I feel so distant from them lately…

Sometimes I really don’t like this school.

Wed, 21 Apr 2010 13:33:59 -0400

Sometimes I really don’t like this school.

Song of the Week- “Alcohol” Brad Paisley

Mon, 19 Apr 2010 16:42:14 -0400

Song of the Week- “Alcohol” Brad Paisley

Don’t you just love those mornings when you accidentally oversleep and then you rush to get...

Fri, 16 Apr 2010 07:43:37 -0400

Don’t you just love those mornings when you accidentally oversleep and then you rush to get ready and you can just tell it’s going to be a bad day?

My “Life’s Little Instructions Calendar’s” message today said “Improve something today, even if it’s only your attitude.”

I’m gonna wanna work on that…

Note To Self:

Thu, 15 Apr 2010 13:29:35 -0400

Stop worrying about things that really don’t matter as much as you think they do. You woke up at 5 this morning unable to fall back asleep because you were freaking out. And you wonder why your muscles have been so tense lately and why you’ve been getting severe tension headaches…seriously, chill out, dude.

I really hate waiting in lines. Oh well, atleast it’s nice out.

Wed, 14 Apr 2010 19:11:50 -0400

I really hate waiting in lines. Oh well, atleast it’s nice out.

Song of the Week- “I’m Alive” - Kenny Chesney...

Tue, 13 Apr 2010 19:26:08 -0400

Song of the Week- “I’m Alive” - Kenny Chesney featuring Dave Matthews

Song of the Week- “Haven’t Met You Yet” by...

Sun, 21 Mar 2010 14:20:56 -0400

Song of the Week- “Haven’t Met You Yet” by Michael Buble

"Remember, if someone lies to you, they’ve done it before, and they will do it again."

Mon, 15 Mar 2010 21:22:59 -0400

““Remember, if someone lies to you, they’ve done it before, and they will do it again.””

- Life’s Little Instructions Calendar Volume XV

I just downloaded over 300 Disney songs. Random, but I love Disney music. p.s- It’s actually...

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 15:30:10 -0500

I just downloaded over 300 Disney songs. Random, but I love Disney music.

p.s- It’s actually quite nice out today. I hope it stays this way.

I think I’m going to start dedicating a song to each week....

Sat, 06 Mar 2010 13:39:08 -0500

I think I’m going to start dedicating a song to each week. It’s probably not a great idea that i’m starting this on a Saturday since weeks typically begin on a Sunday, but I’m feeling inspired so I’m goinig to start it today anyway. This weeks song is Winner At A Losing Game by Rascal Flatts.

I want to go back.

Thu, 04 Mar 2010 13:54:06 -0500

I want to go back.

"This is one time, this is one time That you can’t fake it hard enough to please everyone Or..."

Tue, 02 Mar 2010 17:59:33 -0500

““This is one time, this is one time
That you can’t fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all…or anyone at all””

- Dashboard Confessional

I really miss playing basketball.

Tue, 16 Feb 2010 22:07:45 -0500

I really miss playing basketball.

GO COLTS!

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 13:06:37 -0500

GO COLTS!

Secrets

Fri, 05 Feb 2010 11:14:10 -0500

“There are two kinds of secrets: those we keep from others, and the ones we hide from ourselves.”

-Frank Warren

After hearing Frank Warren speak last night I came to a realization: we all have secrets. Ok, so it’s not something that I didn’t already know, but it really made me think about the secrets I’m holding in. I’m starting to notice how much I’ve been shutting myself off from the world lately. I keep putting up walls in hopes that people won’t see how I truly feel. I wish I didn’t do this. I’m not sure how I became this way because I used to be someone who was very open with the world. I wasn’t afraid to share my feelings. But as I grow up, I’m noticing that I’m keeping more and more inside. I think having these secrets and not sharing them with anyone is part of the reason I’ve been struggling with self-expression so much. Instead of expressing how I really feel I put on a mask because it’s easier that way. It’s easier to mask the feelings then it is to bring them to the surface and deal with them. Keeping all of the feelings and secrets inside is really starting to affect me, as I’m sure it would any person. I want to try and fix this though. I wish I could say that right now I’m going to take off the mask and hide no more, but unfortunately it’s not that easy. I do want to start expressing my feelings more and work on releasing some of the secrets I’ve been hiding, but I think it’s something that has to be taken care of step by step, one day at a time. I already know the first step I’m going to take. I know I’m ready to start sharing secrets, but I’m not sure how ready I am to share them with those around me. So I’m going to write a secret on a postcard, and send it to Frank. It seems kind of silly, that I’m more willing to share a secret with a stranger than the people I know. But to be honest, a lot of the reason that I’ve been keeping so much in is because I’m worried about others judging me. Regardless of who it is or what it’s about I hate being judged. I know it shouldn’t matter. I should be myself and not worry about what other people think or have to say, but this is always something I’ve had a hard time with. But that’s another story for another post.

I think it’s time to write my postcard…